July23rd. 

It'sarainingday,justlikemymood.Can'tbelieveit'sstartingalloveragain.CanIstilltrustlove?orcanIbeloved?Guysarealways,alwayslikethis-They'rejustnotthatintoyou.eversinceMarch.Ithasbeenalmost5months.Experiencedcrush,flirting,disappear,andfinallyapart.Wordscan'texp sshowhollowI'mfeelingrightnow.Yes,everythingcangoawayanddisapper.Ioncebelievedthatloveisthemostp ciousthingsinthisuniversenomatterwhereverwego.MaybeI'mwrong.I'm26,almost30.Thep ssure,theburden,cameandnevergoaway.

Sothestoryis,Imetthisguy.Funny,rich,masculine.Ithoughthewasdifferent thananyotherguysthatIknow.But,iwaswrongagain.Whytheycameandallofsudden,disappear?justlikeothersnobsactinglikeadumb.Ihatethis,Onebittenandtwiceshy. neverwanttogivemyhearttoanyoneelseagain exceptformyself.